Fluffy Friday: Fear of Failure
That’s a lot of alliteration.
I had almost forgotten my little birthday present to myself that I have yet to “enjoy”.
My upcoming RKC certification. I got an email from Dragon Door yesterday reminding me of the requirements. Oh yes….those.
Can I confess something?
I’m nervous. I was nervous for the one day HKC certification.
I don’t want ripped hands. I don’t want to wake up day two and not be able to move. But most of all I don’t want to fail. (I’ve foolishly been reading blogs of people who didn’t pass.)
Fear of failure is not a good reason to not try. Fear of failure is not a good reason to not give it your all. Fear of failure, however, is a good reason to pray.
If the certification was tomorrow I would kill myself trying to pass fail the snatch test. I’m not quite ready but I’m holding onto the hope I will be.
I have been training hard on my own and with Doug. I’m feeling my endurance and strength grow. I’ve been teaching others and seeing them get stronger. Why am I not ready? Because I still don’t meet the weight requirements to be able to test with the 12k (26lbs) kettlebell and I can’t snatch the 16K (35lbs) 100 times. However, I did snatch it one time. ONE. TIME. I was so happy you would have thought Thom Yorke had offered Brent and I a private concert. I’m still missing the requirements by 99 reps but I figure if I can do it once I can do it 100…right? Maybe not by August 27, which is why I’m still slowly carrying out Operation Six Pack even if I have been slacking on my food journal. (Seriously, I don’t know how food bloggers do it.)
It’s been interesting to be losing weight for reasons beyond vanity. I feel like a wrestler trying to make a weight class but thankfully I don’t have to touch anyone else’s sweat or wear a singlet. Instead of looking at a pair of jeans that are too tight, I look at a kettlebell that is too heavy. The same goal but an entirely different mindset. I like it.
I like being intentional.
I like having a goal.
I like looking for strength outside of myself.
Have an awesome weekend.
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